Choices and changes.

"While many choices are hard, decisions still need to be made."

I’ve always been the one who is forever in love with fairy tales, romantic happily-ever-afters, and prince charmings. Growing up with countless Disney movies and Disneyland trips, it just felt like I was in the middle of a fairy tale, especially when there was never really a moment when I didn’t have extra ordinary feelings for someone. So in the middle of junior year, it felt extremely odd that for once, I didn’t really want to have feelings for anyone. I haven’t really been in many official relationships, but even liking someone was fun for me.

Throughout the year, I stayed away from falling in too deep. But now, when I’m faced with the choice of pursuing the possibility of a relationship, I’m split. One part of me totally wants to go into this, head on, and just see what happens, but the other knows I should stay away. It’s just the fact of the uncertainty in this situation. I know how I feel when I have feelings for someone, and even though a part of me really wants for this to happen, there’s just nothing there, and I’m actually really glad about that, because I know it wouldn’t work it out anyways. When I do wanna get into a relationship, I wanna make sure it’s worth it, for someone I’m completely crazy for. I’m not so willing to get into a relationship anymore because I knew there had to be changes made in my life about what was important, and this is the side of life I chose: the one that is going to get me towards my dream. The one that’s going to get me into my dream college. The one that’s going to help me become a better dancer every single day. The one that’s going to help me perform in a dance company later in life. The one that’s going to get me to write a book later in life. The one that is going to make me a Broadway star. The one that’s going to allow me to change society. The one that is going to assist me to make a change in the world. This is the fairy tale story I want. Yeah, one day I’ll start a family, and that’s going to be a whole new exciting experience, but right now, I really don’t care about guys. I still believe in happily-ever-afters when it comes to romance, but like Taylor Swift once said, it’s all about happily-ever-after right now.

Disclaimer: The title is an example of the “choice” definition on urbandictionary.com. Yep, that’s how I do it.

Once upon a time...

... there lived a fifteen year old girl named Jennifer who had just discovered the joys of social media. It became the best part of her life, and she was able to explore fandoms, find amazing people, and discover and evolve into a part of herself she didn't know existed. For the next two years, she connected more to online friends as they guided her through a new part of the universe.
Then came junior year, and Jennifer used all these new parts of herself to good use as she became more involved IRL. She still had a love for social media, but less tweets, videos, and dailybooth pictures were uploaded. Completely warped up in a different world, Jennifer disregarded the place that was once her home.
The end.
Nope, not yet.
Okay, so enough talking about myself in third person.
So, hi, I'm Jennifer. I'm a sixteen (almost seventeen) year old girl living in Orange County, California. I dance, but you've probably figured that out already. Major choir, Disney, Broadway, nerd (overall nerd in general). I consider myself an activist. I got big dreams, and I won't let anyone tell me they're a waste of time. :)
Basically, I miss social media, so much. It introduced me to so many people and different aspects of life. Throughout this whole year, I've used qualities and lessons I've learned from experiencing social media to good use, but I haven't been able to really get involved in social media itself. So, I'm at the end of junior year, and my goal for summer and senior year is to blog, tweet, tumblr, vlog as much as I can. I might fail, but hey, it's worth a shot. Social media and the people I met through it inspired me in ways unimaginable, and I only hope to give back and speak out, and let my voice be heard my words be read. I hope you follow me through this journey. :) Take a chance with me, dance with me (nudge nudge towards blog title).
Bahahahahaha. 'Till next time, friends!